God Loves you. It’s a platitude for most of us, I know. It’s
something that we say all the time. We say it in times of sorrow when we wish
to comfort others and, hopefully, we it say in times of joy to thank Him. But,
do we live it? I mean, seriously, do we really live it? Or do we only
spiritualize it. Are we really as committed to this Love as we think we are?
Are we really willing to go through the physical and emotional pain that loving
God in a human way requires of us? Because, I don’t think we are. I must
confess, I certainly don’t think that I’ve been willing to submit myself to it.
I think that each and every one of us is guilty of separating ourselves into
parts, preventing us from fully participating in God’s infinite Love for us.
So, I’m calling everyone out, right here and right now
(myself included). We need to stop hyper-spiritualizing our faith. We need to
get our heads out of the clouds (figuratively and “virtually”). The kingdom
that Christ created was for the living. Yes, His kingdom is not of this world,
but it was made for those who wander in it. Those who wander in this world—you
and I—were given bodies. What we do with those bodies matters. Why am I harping
on this?
Because I think that, if we’re completely honest with
ourselves, a lot of us will realize that in the back of our minds we’re
slightly relieved to not have to go to mass on Sundays. Being physically
present at mass can be difficult, distracting, uncomfortable, and sometimes—dare
I say it—boring. The problem with this is that, we don’t realize what we’ve
lost. Our Lord has been taken from us. He’s been wrenched from our hands,
declared non-essential, and if we can’t see that our reaction to this is a problem
then we simply don’t understand the significance of our human bodies.
Now, I’m about to embark on a short dissertation on bodies
and souls. This is going to be difficult to follow. So, I’m going to start off
by stating the end goal here so that it can serve as a roadmap. What I want us
all to take away from this short dissertation is that we all, yes all of us,
have a split mind in this area. We all unintentionally are separating our souls
and our bodies from each other. We consider them as two separate things. We
think that we can somehow separately “act physically” and “act spiritually”.
So, what I’m hoping we can all take away from the next few paragraphs is this:
your body and your soul are not separated things; acting with “just your body”
makes no sense; acting with “just your soul” makes no sense. Now, to begin:
You’ve often heard that your body and soul are not two
separate things. They are, in fact, one thing. “A body infused with a soul,”
goes the common explanation, which is true. Unfortunately, though, this
statement doesn’t accurately convey the reality of the situation in my opinion.
You are a physical thing: something that is and can become something else. The
“that is” part of the definition is your form (or your soul since “a soul” is
just the form of a living thing), and the “can become something else” is your
matter (matter doesn’t equal body, it is simply manifested by it, but we’ll get
to that later). This means that when we say, “your soul”, we really just mean
your form, what you are. Note the
oneness this understanding. Your body and your soul are just parts of the
definition of what you are as a physical thing.
What does this mean for us? Well, it means that when I look
at you, I don’t simply see “your body”, I see you. I do not, at once, perceive
all of you in your entirety, but I do observe that a very integral part of who
you are is that you can change. I see that you are, and that you can become something
else (i.e. you are a physical thing). So we can see that your soul is not
“infused into your body”, it is just simply you, and you can change. When you
change, those changes are reflected in you and I am able to perceive them. We
colloquially would call this a change in “your body” but, it really is just
simply a change in you. Let me repeat that for clarity: “your body” changing
(or acting) is really just you changing.
God gave you free will and an immortal soul. This means that
a part of you does not change, and what happens to this part of you that is
unchanging—immortal—is determined solely by what you can change. Thus, your
body has a profound importance. It is your only means of actually changing. It
is your only means of exerting your influence, your will, on the world around
you. It is your only means of actually accepting the gift that Christ freely
offers you.
You may be tempted here to try to call me out here on the
importance of prayer, saying that praying is far more powerful than anything
else we could ever do physically with our bodies. This, while partially true,
is forgetting that you use your body to pray. You cannot pray when you are
sleeping, you cannot pray when you are in a coma and don’t have brain function.
Your body is necessary even for the spiritual act of praying. Because, again, trying
to separate things that “your body” does and things that “your soul” does,
makes no sense. When you act, all of you acts.
So, why is all of this important? It’s important because the
way that we all reacted to my earlier statement that, “our Lord has been taken
from us,” is simply just wrong. I’m 1000% sure that you, in your head, said to
yourself, “God is always with us, He can’t be taken away.” I’m that sure
because I heard it in my head and I’m the one trying to convince us that it’s
the wrong reaction. The only sense that something can be taken away from us is
in the physical sense.
Since your body is the only way you can change, someone else
is only able to change you with their body. This means that it simply doesn’t
make any sense for something spiritually to be taken from you, since you, in
your power to change (to become something else), are given sole dominion over
your immortal soul. Only something physical can be taken away from you because
that is the only part of you that can change. So, when I say that our Lord has
been taken from us, I mean this in its truest sense.
Our Lord has been physically removed from our lives. Access
to the sacraments has been prohibited, prevented, and in some cases, made
illegal. Many of us have no issues with this at all. We tell ourselves that
this separation is necessary to save lives, and therefore we are “at peace”
with it. However, saying we are “at peace” with this situation is a misnomer so
great it’s almost laughable. To be at peace is, to put it simply, to have that
which you desire.
Our first and foremost desire in this life is to be with
God. Consequently, for us, peace in its truest sense means to be with God. Your
body, and therefore you, are currently separated from God. You are not in your
entirety separated from him, for sure. But, in the truest sense of the word He
has been taken from you, and this should not give you peace.
Don’t misunderstand me here, I’m not to trying say that we
should all just turn in to angsty toddlers who have been separated from the
parents, but we also should avoid the trap of retreating into a hyper-spiritualized
realm where we can somehow be with God in any way that remotely resembles the
ineffable and unknowable beauty that is in the Sacraments, without actually
having them. God didn’t give us these sacraments for some spiritual entity
attached to us that we call our soul. God gave the sacraments to us because He
wanted us to be able to fully and completely participate in heaven here on
earth.
In no uncertain terms, when we receive Him in communion, we
are truly at peace in its fullest sense. Within us, for a time, resides the
Creator of the universe. Not just in the miraculous way in which the Holy
Spirit resides in us always, but fully and completely changing even as we do.
Yet, for some reason, when faced with a situation so singularly evil that we
are forced to be separated from Him, we refuse to allow ourselves to truly
experience the pain that this separation should bring. Instead we are running
away from the importance of our bodies.
Listen, I’m not trying to say that we need to have public
masses. I’m not trying to say that there is something wrong with watching mass
online to spiritually participate in the sacrament. What I’m trying to say is
that you and I grossly misunderstand what the mass is. We just simply don’t
understand. Our hearts should be broken, yearning to be reconciled with our
greatest love in the same way that we yearn for physical human interaction in
these difficult times of separation. Your body matters because your body is
your only way of acting and only when you act with it are you fully human. God
does not want to be with your “soul”, he wants to be with you, and that
includes your “body”.
We need to let our hearts be broken, even as God heart is
broken because He is separated from us. God is not allowing this evil to
separate us so that we can find novel ways of halfway participating in His
sacraments. We already do that every day when we go to mass and forget to
present our bodies to Him even as we feebly attempt to present our souls to him;
as if one can be presented without the other. God is allowing this evil to separate
us so that we can experience physically the desire that so many of us seem to
only be able to experience in its spiritual form.
“Created things kept me from you; yet if they had not been
in you they would have not been at all. You called, you shouted, and you broke
through my deafness. You flashed, you shone, and you dispelled my blindness.
You breathed your fragrance on me; I drew in breath and now I pant for you. I
have tasted you, now I hunger and thirst for more. You touched me, and I burned
for your peace.” (St. Augustin of Hippo)
This is not a “spiritual” love. This is a human one. I
burned for your peace. I…burned…to be with you. Do you burn for his peace? Is
your heart burdened with the crushing pain of separation that you feel when you
are separated from your closest friend, your wife, your husband, your children,
the people that are closest to you? For some reason, when we move into the
realm of our faith, it’s like we leave our bodies behind, like this is some
sort of intellectual duty that we all participate in to get grace points. It’s
not.
We are being asked by God right now to make our faith “less
of a theory and more of a love affair.” Don’t let this opportunity pass you by.
Don’t run to the fanciful land where the desires for your spiritual welfare are
somehow disconnected from your physical body. Let your heart break.
Acknowledge in the depths of your heart that you are without
your greatest love. That you have been separated from Him. Let this tear you
apart like the lost love of your past. Let the deepest desire of your heart
that you have disguised as merely a spiritual desire manifest itself physically
within you. Allow yourself to fully participate in your faith both physically
and spiritually like you never have before. Don’t push away the discomfort and
the sorrow. Let it come crashing down upon you and in the broken mess that
results, allow Him to stretch your heart. Allow yourself to hope. Allow Him to
lift you up. The whole you.
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